& i'm on the bleachers

ARGH! i have to blog, my fingers are itchy!
ever since friday's incident, i learnt ways of venting my anger.

• netball
• running- as suggested by rachel

thank you.

i've always been on the verge of breaking down. but ive never did it literally in school before. reasons for my breaking down would be because of stress, tight schedule week or perhaps just for no reason.

i think, me not having to play netball these days, had showed some side effects and i dont like it. it feels as if i havent been thinking straight and well enough. and it wont be surprising if you see me doing unreasonable stuff like spending an hour of recess in the library doing homework rather than in the canteen having some light snack. my tuition teacher also resort to approaching my mum for my moody impression i left on him for the first 2 weeks of tuition. not that i screamed wildly.. but probably me being strangely quiet. seriously, life isnt good for now. i get upset easily that i was unable to absorb anything during the first lesson as i expect myself to get it on the spot just like how i was used to in sec 2. goodness, ive decided for a change.

regarding netball, since we are in a midst of east zone, yes i have to give way to my seniors whom i agree should be doing more court work rather than spending time on drills with juniors. i think mr san wouldnt have done that. it tears my heart hearing huiyi say that we must accept the fact that he isnt coming back to PRC. for whatever it is, i'd like to focus on cross country instead. im so glad it'll be back to pasir ris park and all. and rachel suggested that i vent my anger on running too. since the past year, venting my anger during netball enhances my performance on court. i strongly belief that.

i'll miss the seniors! i loved being in my position as part of the B'Div PRCNetball 09'!
i'd like to only have netball and studies in my own circle of discovery and nothing else. can?

P.S MRS KOH- i dont want another physics teacher but only YOU! haha ^^
`AiN